contents:

1. the Romantic fragment
2. life would want to die, a little
3. pain itself is the meaning, in Nietzsche
4. martyrs do not underrate the body
5. inwardly, an Actor prepares
5b. brother, bro: it’s only you that overhears you
5c. J is like Hamlet / Herzog / Holden Caulfield / Raskolnikov
5d. they take him to a basement & they feed him METH
6. a surface is revealed / the depths are all inferred
6b. my Self is all depth: a long internal vertical
6c. Joyce knows not the inside of ideas
6d. perception of depth is maladaptive
7. by knowing Death, humans are the Woken Ones
8. all as straw, or graphomania
8b. i tend to write thru / tho unless i’m imitating English
9. Finnegans Wake as Literature’s endgame
10. Hard Realism: Hemingway, Knausgård
11. the cause of pain, in Buddhism
11b. duḥkha is uh-hukha: the gut’s double throb